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I have a confession to make…

It’s been a month since my last blog post… I was busy with a series of blogs about #ItsNotAboutUs… I was at the point of “If it’s not about us, then who or what is it about?” During this period of almost 4 weeks I was knocked off my chair. The very thing I tried writing about was what made me pause for a while to reflect on things.

I have a confession to make… I started with the blog to give glory and praise to our God and Father, inspired by the journey He is taking me on, in awe of the grace Jesus brought by His obedience and sacrifice, by the comfort and companionship of the Holy Spirit. Sharing my ups and downs over the last few years, and how He is leading me to healing and fulfillment. Yes, #ItsNotAboutUs… but I made it about myself… I was seeking recognition, I looked for approval from the followers I had… I got frustrated that I shared my posts with more than 200 friends and family members, and had a strike rate of less than 20% on each post, less than 20% of “close” people actually read my posts. I adjusted my blogs to the critique I received from friends, in the hope to get more followers and satisfy the readers. I cut my blogs from 2500 to under 1000 words, because “today’s readers” don’t read and can’t concentrate that long. I spent more time trying to figure out what to delete than sharing what the Holy Spirit has revealed to me… It started off as revelation and teaching from the Holy Spirit, and ended up in trying to reach human satisfaction and approval, usually cutting the teaching out of it, resulting it to bring a total different message than what it intended to be… the purpose lost its intention, the intention was to bring glory to God, the purpose became useless with my own desires taking priority.

1 Corinthians 10:31 Tells us that ‘Whatever you do, do all to the glory of our great God.’ It often happens that we get inspired by the Holy Spirit to take on certain tasks, it might be in ministry, business or personal tasks. We give praise to God for the inspiration and for getting the ball rolling, but as soon as we are in the midst of the assignment, we get side tracked. I personally have noticed that once I find myself in a position of not doing it for God, I get bored very quickly and loose interest.  My blog is a typical example, it became a seek for words rather than revelation. I have a list as long as my arm that I need to write about, but even the scriptures that inspired the list needs a lot of squeezing to get juice out of it if I am going to do this by myself. There is so much happening around us, with so much revelation if we are attentive to the Holy Spirit, and if we don’t put God in the center of our being, we will miss the revelation and teaching.

When we are inspired or lead by God to a new season in our life, we need to ensure we stay close to God to get the correct output. If we start the process in His presence and move out of His presence half way through, we will not meet His intended purpose or will for the season. Once again, a typical example is the blogs… with each post I ended well over 2000 words, I then had to cut back over a thousand words to get it below a thousand words… that is a whole lot of words to remove and hope to get the same message across, it very seldom stayed the same message, most of the headings even changed after I’ve slaughtered it.

Let everything that has breath praise the Lord, in whatever you do, no matter what it is. If you cannot give God praise in your doing, then you probably shouldn’t be doing what you are, correct your ways and align yourself to His word.

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